That's All She Wrote

Closing her eyes, she always went back to her reverie of Utopian world filled with perfect people in perfect places where she painted her own days, her own happiness and her own customized moments of life. She couldn't help but compare present with every other time she imagined which led to tears and wetting of her eyes which made them slightly shimmer.

Today she sat on her quilt with her cold dolls who weren't made to talk when she hoped they would. She closed her eyes and lay back her head to enter into her own delusional world. But this time it wasn't a tear that came out through those beautiful eyes; those eyes, they were dry today, they were feelingless and they wanted to see the reality.

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Is anybody here? Is anybody listening?
It's the end of the beginning
All alone I stand on the bridge of memories 
Nobody out there want's to understand
Nobody out there takes me as I am
I can't say that I'm sad; I'm just desperate
For that one shower of blessing I plead 
And as the wind swishes me around 
I need to lay back down
Try to gather back some courage
For nobody saves someone who won't change


Sometimes I find an answer and sometimes I never know
What this life is all about and what I need to bestow
Somebody out there needs to understand
Somebody out there needs to take me as I am
For I'll last no longer in this crass world which is much stronger.

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She cried as she spilled some heavy words into her diary with hope that they'll eat away her pain. This is all she wrote.

My Heart Will Go On

1. There's nothing I fear when you were on my door
2. Why did you throw me of your heart's shore?
3. I never asked you anything; always kept you before.
4. Once more you open the door 'cause I'm not far
5. And everything will shine again like a golden star
6. Come back before I close myself and bury my faith
7. For every night in my dreams, I see you; I feel you
8. And that is how I know you. My heart will go on..


With this little tune and a little salty drop, I close my heart forever and ensconce you away from this world, into my own and I'll wait till time leads you back in my arms. If you don't come back, it would mean you're happier and you don't need me anymore.

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On 100th Anniversary of the sinking of Titanic, I can't help but remember my Rose. Wish I could have pulled her into the ocean of my feelings, my desperation and my empty heart.

~ Jack, while drowning in his own sea of thoughts created by the most selfish thing in this world, Love.

It's Time

                                                                                      Picture Courtesy: Google

It seems to fly but the memories remain

There's nothing to fear; everything's still real

It'll move past by, it has to; to eat away your pain

Even if you walk fast

You still can't change your past

As it's wings spread open

Answers will step down broken

To once again make everything alright

And render your dark road with light.

# Sometimes, time's just the answer you are waiting for. I write this to hear you say, it'll be alright when the time's right.