With head bowed down and loneliness sheathing, I come here today to try and break the crag of distress and regret that has been pilling up from a long time now..
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe Without you, but I have to.
Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt.
It really hurts when someone so beloved, someone so close, someone so dear to us takes an exit on the whim. It hurts deep beneath. She, was my best friend, my pot of secrets and my most lovely admirer. And then one day, she disappeared, deciding what's best for her, leaving her best friend in remorse. Reason, (which I figure), she assumed he was hiding things, playing with her feelings and was not being a true friend. She didn't utter a word and left without a notice, without listening to me. Was that good enough a reason to flush him out of her life?
With time, priorities slowly start to alter. And this leads to an inevitable change in our lives. It brings distances, fights, breakdowns and experiences (a lot more) with itself. (I am here talking about the change with respect to any relation.) It changed everything between us. Our lives, our moments and our bond. We grew apart, far from each other. New faces filled our lives and stacked our minds with new memories. We had to manage the change we were going through, right? And we had to make both the ends meet, anyhow. We failed drastically. Reason that I described above(in the previous para) came through a drastic and tragic incident which I'll rather not discuss. Maybe it was a result of the distance between us or because you expected a lot more.
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe Without you, but I have to.
Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt.
Sometimes I think of her and a sad, despondent smile takes a shape. I never wanted this my friend. Togetherness was the word for us then. What about now? Whenever I read my slam, a tear rolls and the surreal reel of that times shows itself in my mind. What a wonderful time it was! Yaadein, Yaadein, bas yaadein reh jaati hain.
If she's reading this small piece of desperate craving, I just want her to know that I have always valued her in my life and I'll always keep her in me as my cherubic, sapient and boisterous true friend. Miss you.
With this I wish my best friend all the happiness and luck in life. Even if she does not want to be with me ever again.
~ Chagrined, Alone and Sad.
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