There comes a phase in everyone's life when darkness seems to sheathe you, everything around seems useless and you don't care what's happening around you and even to you. It's just a hurdle of life which each one of us has to cross to become strong for the much tougher road ahead. But sometimes, it's not that easy. The jump that was taken only to cross that dark shade on the road can lead to a pit, a more blacker pit.
Life's only based on one principle, "You Never Know" principle. You never know when things will flip one-eighty and leave you crestfallen. You never know when happiness will take a bow out of your busy life only to let a somber beast dive in.
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It's been a long time now since I laughed happily and let myself go. It hurts. They say it's your choice, but sometimes choices are the ones that lead to downfall and for once you don't trust yourself to be right. Finally realizing what being a chagrined maniac is, I write this to express my heart (which has been totally confused by it's mentor). When everything around is so happening and fast, I find myself slow and steady (Today, slow and steady loses the race). May be it's because I feel numb and torpid. And this numbness, (assisting the dark sheath I am in) is eating me slowly. Day by day, moment by moment. Expectations doesn't seem to be the word for me now as I am to myself most of the time, thinking and thinking. Does getting attached to the extent of craziness always gives you tears and remorse? Does accepting blames and accusations solves everything? And is happiness the only aim of our lives? I never get answers, only thing I have gained is, experience.
My day goes on solving Rubic's cube and connecting with music. Sometimes, all we need is Someone to Save you.
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Confusing, sad and whimpering post. Basically a reflection of me.
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine.
You are so much longer, that makes sense apathy in disguise.
They say you need to hold on a bit longer, to realize. I realized, sometimes it's better to just float and not strive. For if you come back, I'll just hope that the wind has turned around and we can make it till the end. As for now, I close my eyes and wish for self-destruct.
Life's only based on one principle, "You Never Know" principle. You never know when things will flip one-eighty and leave you crestfallen. You never know when happiness will take a bow out of your busy life only to let a somber beast dive in.
***
It's been a long time now since I laughed happily and let myself go. It hurts. They say it's your choice, but sometimes choices are the ones that lead to downfall and for once you don't trust yourself to be right. Finally realizing what being a chagrined maniac is, I write this to express my heart (which has been totally confused by it's mentor). When everything around is so happening and fast, I find myself slow and steady (Today, slow and steady loses the race). May be it's because I feel numb and torpid. And this numbness, (assisting the dark sheath I am in) is eating me slowly. Day by day, moment by moment. Expectations doesn't seem to be the word for me now as I am to myself most of the time, thinking and thinking. Does getting attached to the extent of craziness always gives you tears and remorse? Does accepting blames and accusations solves everything? And is happiness the only aim of our lives? I never get answers, only thing I have gained is, experience.
My day goes on solving Rubic's cube and connecting with music. Sometimes, all we need is Someone to Save you.
***
Confusing, sad and whimpering post. Basically a reflection of me.
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine.
You are so much longer, that makes sense apathy in disguise.
They say you need to hold on a bit longer, to realize. I realized, sometimes it's better to just float and not strive. For if you come back, I'll just hope that the wind has turned around and we can make it till the end. As for now, I close my eyes and wish for self-destruct.
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